This has nothing to do with drama, if that's the way they want it, then have it. Makes no sense to begin with. Never got a reason for it anyway.

Y'know what was worse. The other day it was good. Then all of this. That's why it makes no sense. So sue me if I don't feel a little confused. Yeah, things happen while others are away, but why am I being chosen for the punishment of this?

There's always more questions in the world than answers. I should've got one answer at least. And not something stupid. A reason of why I am being left behind.

I can understand breaks. That's usual of any relationships. People get a little irritated with each other. But I'm getting the feeling it's suppose to be permanet from being blocked from myspace, DA, msn, and phone number. =-=

By the way, I'm not pathetic. It's pathetic to team up on someone when you literally don't have a good reason for it. It's kind of like big bullies in a playgroud pickin on a kid because they have huge ass glasses and dorky face.

Going alone at everything isn't admirable. She's not alone because she has YOU. So that arguement went down the drain. No one is ever alone with anything they do. There's either someone above or someone below that is always doing something for the other. That's just how it works, so no one does anything alone. The only thing you can on your own is with your emotions. How to use them, when's this, when's that, and where. Right now I'm failing with mine but I have every right.

I'll tell you what's admirable. When you can admit to the things you've done wrong, and you are willing to change. That you can move forward while still holding hands. That you want to keep going on not to prove that you're the best or that you're higher. That you did it and proved to YOURSELF that you could. It's not over going at it alone, it's going at it with people by you who you know will be there. They help you and you help them. And when you can take responsibility for the things you've done. Just admit you did a wrong.

Gee, isn't that the thing everyone talks about that would make the world a better place. *Rolls eyes*

Funny for something that makes no sense I'm talking so much about it. I guess it's because I lost two people in less than 24 hours that meant the world to me. What's even more ironic is that they single handly just crushed it. Likely I made my own world before this.

Though anyway...I did them a favor. They wanted me gone, okay. I'm gone. It's still hurts in the end they did it and I still don't know why. Especially you, Stuart. You weren't even apart of this and you took sides. After EVERYTHING we've been through...you just jolted like that and turned against me. You could've just stayed neutral. ...Makes no sense.

What's worse; my so called best friends don't even care that they did this. It just a nice laugh. They don't care they made me cry. They don't care that they made me hurt inside. They don't care about me in general.

I wish I could feel the same way but I don't. I will still love them and care about'em. Kinda wish I didn't but I know that isn't right. So.

I can't wake up tomorrow and say nothing happened. I can still wake up and smile for a new day. But I will always remeber this. And I don't think I will EVER be able to forgive them for it. Not like they would apolgize anyway.

...Makes no sense at ALL. After everything we've been threw, they're going to throw it all away. As if it's nothing. Fine. I'll be the one to keep it in my heart and turn it into something beautiful.

Goodbye then. Forever or for a couples months; whenever you decide to come around. I can't forgive what's happened, I don't think so anyway. But I won't stop loving and if you come to me crying; believe it or not I'll still talk to you and let you bring all out. So...I'm finished with this entry. If ya'll ever want to talk to me again, reach me by the cell. You have the power to unblock me. *Shrug*

...I'm still going to send them. Because they are yours.

Alright. I think I'm done now. With the entry anyway. .-. Alrighty...I'm working for my tablet right now. I want to draw things and show them to the world. I've gotten alot better. They look so beautiful now, these pictures.